Hebrew 11:1
Faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.
In the throes of depression, anxiety or even a PTSD attack, I feel alone. I feel I am in the pit. I am surrounded by darkness.
Yet, in this darkness that is full of evil, sadness, hatred, anger a sweet sickening voice calls out softly. It pretends to be my friend. It pretends to understand. It pretends to comfort me. It says things like…
Life is so hard. Your life is a struggle. It just isn’t worth it. Just give in. You are so tired. It would e easier if you just give up. You don’t want to fight anymore. You can’t fight anymore. Everyone else would be so much better without you in their lives. That is what you really want. you are a selfless, loving person. You want what is best for them. So go ahead. Do what is best for them.
In the pit, I feel like Psalms 88:3-4
I am overwhelmed with troubles and my life draws near to death. I am counted among those who go down to the pit. I am like one without strength.
Yes, I am overwhelmed with troubles, near death, in a pit, without strength.
But, wait! These words are in God’s word. God knows where I am. God knows what I am feeling. He used the exact words I am feeling. He even knows I feel like I am crying out to Him and He is rejecting me (Ps 88:14).
He has also provided a magic word to see me through the pit. There is one word, just five little letters long, that will see me out of this pit. That word is FAITH!
The writer of Hebrews us in chapter 11 verse 1 said,
Faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.
So, where does this leave me in my pit of despair? It leaves me confident that as I hope for God to save me and assurance that even though I don’t see Him right now He is there.
THAT IS FAITH!
