Exodus 14:14 NIRV
The Lord will fight for you. Just be still.
When you are in a fight with someone it is so hard to sit still. When that person you are fighting with is yourself it is impossible.
I have spent all of my adult life fighting myself. Mental illnesses is a two-edged sword. You often fight with people around you, never meaning to. Then you turn and fight yourself because of the guilt. You tell yourself the meanest things. Things you would never tell another human being. You hate yourself. For me it is often like an out of body experience. I see the way I am acting and scream but can’t stop myself.
Over the years, I have found the only way I make it through my “episodes” is to sit still. When all those angry voices in my head come to bully me once again, I sit still. It does me know good to fight back. I can’t fight myself. There is nowhere to run or hide. I must sit still. God fights for me. He doesn’t let go. I may not see him or feel him, but he comes for me. He always does.
I have translated these thoughts into other areas of my life. There are times when I need to stand up and fight. However, there are other times God says, “I got this! Sit still and let me fight!” It is in those moments, I am still learning, but always trying to listen. I know how important it is to sit still.
Deep Down Inside
by Tabetha Frick
Imprisoned
Shackled
Darkness surrounds
Deep down inside
Those words are harsh
They cut like a knife
No longer in control
Deep down inside
Why don’t they stop
Can’t they see the pain
Its so dark
Deep down inside
The tears are streaming
The anger is raging
Why is it so dark
Deep down inside
I hear my voice
I try to scream
I am here in the dark
Deep down inside
Too late now
The damage is done
I must wait in the dark
Deep down inside
The light will come
It always does
But for now I wait
Deep down inside
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